The story you are about to read is true- it is about my life. I would like you to take a moment to read about my sorrows and how I found inspiration to persevere I have become a voice for those that are the silent ones…….. the abused children and woman. I am opening a foundation that will provide a home for woman that have been abused to have a place to go to get on there feet and become independent successful woman.
Have a blessed day for here is my story……………
My Name is Jessica Solsona and I was a victim of abuse.
I was molested as a child by my step father ….. for years……while my own mother knew me being violated and did nothing to stop it. ……for years I did not know why she did not protect me. she told me she hated me because she thought …… she thought he was paying more attention to me then her. He would go to my bedroom every night and take me to the sofa while he watched porn. I was so scared ……… He would tell me not to fight back or I would get beaten. I just laid there numb, wanting someone to save me. I turned to my mother for comfort and protection, there was none. She said she hated me because in her mind I was stealing the man she loved. There was no solitude, no place for me to turn .
I never had the protection a child should have….. the protectionachild needs from her parents. The very people who should have kept me safe had imprisoned me into a life sexual slavery.
When I was 15 I was married just to get out of the abuse to only get myself into another abusive 7 years! He abused me everyday. I left school to work and pay his court fees. I had a son at 16 and soon after at 17 I had a daughter. I Fought hard to make sure they were not hurt by him or anyone. He was deported back to Costa Rica and I followed thinking he would change because he told me would. my kids and I were held hostage in Costa Rica for a year because he would not let us leave. He was so abusive and even more so because we were not in the USA. In that year my 6 month old daughter at that time almost died. I fought hard to get back. I made it back to the USA with both my kids and without him! I worked so hard to get on my feet. I now I remarried and now have four children. I want to show them there mothers a solder And can overcome anything!
My story is my life and through it all I had my faith in God…………….. I knew that I was brought onto this earth for a greater meaning. A meaning that eluded me. My search for peace is all that kept me going through the many uears of abuse that followed. My faith that one day I would make my way through the depair and use every ounce of my being to make sure other children and women did not endure what I had.
My dream of one day having a family of my own has come true. However the physical as well as emotional scars have remained.Like many women and children that go through what I have Ihave Complex Post Traumatic Stress D…….. or PTSD. Though my will is strong, at this time I am unable to mauntain full timeemployment. I use this time to love my children each and every day. I work to raise money for my foundation for abused children and women as well as work on my memoir so I can tell my story and hopefully help someone’s desperite dry for help. I want so much to make a difference in this world. I feel it is my obligation, my purpose.!
I want to make a program where woman can get help to get out of abuse. Most woman stay because they are told they are nothing, they can't make it without them, and they don’t have the money to get out and be independent.
My goal is to get them out and give them support. I want to have a stable home where they can go to and have the protection they need. I want doctors to help them with what they have beenthrough. I want to find them secure job's. I want woman to become strong successful and independent.
As for the kid's who were abused I want so much more! They never asked to live that kind of life. All they want is a mother and father who will protect them not abuse them. I am wishing my book could help change how people see and think about child abuse! When they hear a child screraming for the person abusing a child to stop! I HOPE THEY WOULD DO SOMETHING INTSTEAD OF NOTHING!
Please donate to help me get started on helping others!
Much love to you all!
Jessica Lynn solsona
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