Wednesday, 20 April 2011
Outside the wind blows bending the trees
As I stand before you, knowing you won't answer me.
I have so much anger that you should of calmed
After all is a father not supposed to keep his child safe from harm?
Hey, remember Christmas 73' you had bought a bicycle meant for me
You came home drunk with friends and their three kids
I had to watch them open my presents
As a tear slipped.
Wait, remember the day you joyfully said
'I'll be the proudest dad the day you wed'
Turning, seeing my eyes fill with glee, you said
' I mean you're sister'
I thought you meant me.
From toddler to teen, into becoming a mom
Compliment from you daddy
No, I never did get one
You left us behind to begin a new life
New child, new family
New home, new wife
Well the strangest fact that I think you should know
I wasn't sad daddy
When I watched you go
Years passed by, we met up now and again
Another put down from you
Guess some things never change
I refused to allow you to darken my light
Had a family myself, the loves of my life
I have tried real hard to recall a kind word
Whilst you remain silent
Least that's a first.
You know I never was able to face you and not tremble or shake
A child so afraid of a father she hates
Hate you put in me, the fear and the dread
what a gift I now give you
As I hold high my head
It's a cold winter morning
the snow falls like white truth
Covering the ground as it comforts lost youth
I place a kiss on you're forehead
A rose placed in you're hands
red, for the anger that I release
Time for the healing
To admit to my grief
Grieving a father
Death's closure, complete
I Have to leave now
into the white dressed in black
The coffin is closing
As I bury the past
Posted by Irishgreeneyes at 16:57