Saying Goodbye

Outside the wind blows bending the trees
As I stand before you, knowing you won't answer me.

I have so much anger that you should of calmed
After all is a father not supposed to keep his child safe from harm?

Hey, remember Christmas 73' you had bought a bicycle meant for me
You came home drunk with friends and their three kids
I had to watch them open my presents
As a tear slipped.

Wait, remember the day you joyfully said
'I'll be the proudest dad the day you wed'
Turning, seeing my eyes fill with glee, you said
' I mean you're sister'
I thought you meant me.

From toddler to teen, into becoming a mom
Compliment from you daddy
No, I never did get one

You left us behind to begin a new life
New child, new family
New home, new wife

Well the strangest fact that I think you should know
I wasn't sad daddy
When I watched you go

Years passed by, we met up now and again
Another put down from you
Guess some things never change

I refused to allow you to darken my light
Had a family myself, the loves of my life

I have tried real hard to recall a kind word
Whilst you remain silent
Well
Least that's a first.

You know I never was able to face you and not tremble or shake
A child so afraid of a father she hates

Hate you put in me, the fear and the dread
what a gift I now give you
As I hold high my head

It's a cold winter morning
the snow falls like white truth
Covering the ground as it comforts lost youth

I place a kiss on you're forehead
A rose placed in you're hands
red, for the anger that I release
It's time

Time for the healing
To admit to my grief
Grieving a father
Death's closure, complete

I Have to leave now
into the white dressed in black
The coffin is closing
As I bury the past 

@ Delaproser